nine : forty one

it's 9:41 pm.

Let's pretend.

let's pretend all our wounds have faded

and today's despair is someone's hope tomorrow.

love doesn't make you blind.

life is a joke.

and the man in front of me at the checkout line doesn't cry every night 
because his wife buried herself in a box underground by the old oak tree.

let's pretend I don't like swing sets.

the grass is greener today.

and my life is horrible.

My dad isn't effected from what happened 30 years ago.

bugs are an essential part of life.

school teaches you how to be a better person,

 raise a family, and make the 2 decisions that will determine your happiness.

My first grade best friend is happy with who she is.

Jello is good.

and laughing cures cancer.

Let's pretend money doesn't determine happiness.
rules are meant to be broken.
rain means heaven is crying.
Siri can guide you through life
And the weather determines the mood of mankind.

Let's pretend boys know what girls want.

Let's pretend girls aren't easy.

Let's pretend kissing you isn't the best thing that ever happened to me.
and his touch heals my soul.

Let's not pretend anymore.
Because loving you is the realist thing I have ever felt.
And when you find something real in this world you have to hold it tightly against your body so it doesn't fly away.

So please let's stop because one day we're all gonna explode of falseness.

just love.

but never say love is like anything.

because you would be pretending to know that.

Heavens Help

Sometimes in life you cry. 

You cry because you're happy.  

You cry because you're sad, 

or you cry for no reason at all.  

Today I am crying for a million reasons, but at the same time only one very small one. 

I can taste the salt as the liquid rolls down my cheek ever so slightly.

My body trembles.

My heart shakes.

My arm limp from the pain.

I would never wish this upon anyone, 

not even the guy who took the girl 4 houses down. 

I can hear the heavens rooting for me.  

Cheers of despair covered by a light layer of hope.

"Let it go" they say.

"Take my hand I can help"

Today I am crying for a million reasons, but at the same time only one very small one.