yoU

you are the distraction from the reality of my own depression.

nine : forty one

it's 9:41 pm.

Let's pretend.

let's pretend all our wounds have faded

and today's despair is someone's hope tomorrow.

love doesn't make you blind.

life is a joke.

and the man in front of me at the checkout line doesn't cry every night 
because his wife buried herself in a box underground by the old oak tree.

let's pretend I don't like swing sets.

the grass is greener today.

and my life is horrible.

My dad isn't effected from what happened 30 years ago.

bugs are an essential part of life.

school teaches you how to be a better person,

 raise a family, and make the 2 decisions that will determine your happiness.

My first grade best friend is happy with who she is.

Jello is good.

and laughing cures cancer.

Let's pretend money doesn't determine happiness.
rules are meant to be broken.
rain means heaven is crying.
Siri can guide you through life
And the weather determines the mood of mankind.

Let's pretend boys know what girls want.

Let's pretend girls aren't easy.

Let's pretend kissing you isn't the best thing that ever happened to me.
and his touch heals my soul.

Let's not pretend anymore.
Because loving you is the realist thing I have ever felt.
And when you find something real in this world you have to hold it tightly against your body so it doesn't fly away.

So please let's stop because one day we're all gonna explode of falseness.

just love.

but never say love is like anything.

because you would be pretending to know that.

Re-My Love

your face? syrup & honey.

your smile so sweet I can taste the sugar.

your body on mine.

lips intertwined.

timeless.

no amount of persuading could make me leave.

I remember when all she could talk about was him.

now all I can think about is you.

you hit me like a flash flood.

not enough time for warning.

my wings not yet ready for flying.
still I fell freely into your strong arms ready for catching.

the world stopped its spin.

people watch to see us dance through a song that's never been sung.

see if our steps match up.

you are a beautiful dancer.

bodies aligned.

hands pulling.

there is not enough hours in 1999 to make enough time for you.

I swear I checked my watch five minutes ago but it's already been 2 days.

I have you on replay.

a song that is never overplayed.

a movie that you can never quite understand.

a book. that no matter how many times you read it, the words seem new.

I've never met someone so persuading.

one look and I'm in.

tell me to drop what I'm doing and I will.

your gravity stronger than a million earths.
pulling me in slowly as if the rope might snap from the tension between us.

I hit you like a tsunami.
body limp from the rush.
if you ask me I'll let you drown.
but my air has more flavor then life itself.

i don't want to be desperate.

maybe this isn't called desperate but something else.

something that makes me full.

full on conversation and sugar lips.

you make me happy.

so believe me when I say, I won't forget this.

I can't forget you.